2021.11.22.
Trauma
Literally less than an hour has passed since the last time you asked me how I feel....The trauma comes back to me, and only someone mentioned the word 'family.'
All my fucking life I've been so humiliated, even by them, I feel unworthy of being happy, joyful, loved
Broken pile of shit
To everyone, I was just a toy or a piece of trash, they pushed me around
Someone asks me how I feel and tries to talk to me and all I want to do is throw up everything that's rotting on me
alcoholic
pervert
rape
fucking sister
Catholic schizophrenic
I want to bang my head against the wall it's stopped
Everything hurts
I can't stop crying
I hate myself so much, myself and this shitty life
I want to hurt myself
Because she deserves it